Feel bad recently. Well, I guess it’s just like dead water. I don’t know how to disturb it with an appropriate force. I don’t want to talk, don’t want to ask even don’t bother myself with the new lab life. What if I was still in China and hanging out with the old freinds and to get a master degree as expected when I was a freshman in 2006. Well,,, Well,,, I don’t know.
———————————-AND I DECIDE TO CHANGE———————————————————————————-
I will start talking with colleagues in the office.
I will tell myself every morning that it’s gonna be fine!
I will smile to every one I meet in campus.
I will be passionate and active again!
I will find back my motivation= graduate as soon as possible and get together with him.
I will think of mum, dad and sister, who believe me and encourage me.
I will never be afraid of difficulties, loneliness and the what the hell the relationship goes to.
And as YP said, 你已经在那里了，我这里说“那里”，不只是地理上的美国，更是一个阶段。你做出了选择，你为那个选择付出了你生命中最好的年华。你要坚强，别人的看法、期望神马的都是浮云，重要的是，你要对得起你自己的年华.